I know it's been a while since i have wrote a blog. The fact is i am not much of a blogger. Something hit me tonight the night of our countries freedom form the British empire on 1776. Me and my  dads side of the family(-1) watch a touching movie. The movie was The Bucket List. Me being the person i am normally don't care for sentimental movies, but this movie struck close to home with me. I notice two very important questions asked in that movie.

1) Have you found joy in your life?
2) Has your life brought joy to others?

These are questions normally asked by Egyptian gods when people were at St. Peters gates, but its logical question and very good questions? lol i hope when it is my time i can not approach these questions from the Salinger angle.
( What I thought I would do is pretend I was a deaf-mute.) I tend to take this angle very often and it tends not to work some times.So i just thought i write my thoughts in Cyber Space in stead of a internal written journal to be stored and forgotten by me.( kinda odd a college kid thinking of these things.) Ah well who am I kidding I need to life life to the fullest and not regret a thing that is my answer to the first question. When I know the second answer I then I will be the laughing man :b

For yall that read this leave comment I would love to know what yall think.

ah well this year has absolutely started off crappy. i don't know i guess it takes a while for someone to actually be happy again..... cause i am still waiting ...the only thing that keeps me going are my friends thats all and even then its a temporary fix to the problem.i dont know any more why do we do this..... what is the point??? where do i need to be ??? i want my old life back !!!!

"We're our own dragons as well as our own heroes, and we have to rescue ourselves from ourselves."
Author: Patricia Sampson